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Wordless Wednesday: Leap Day


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Peeling Back Another Layer . . .

“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the f--k on.” ~ Tupac Shakur

I had one of those "aha" moments today on my drive home from work.  One of those my good friend Regina, co-founder of Romancing Your Soul, often speaks of.  She also likens each new "aha" moment to peeling back the layers of an onion.  Along our spiritual or human paths, we don't often become the best version of ourselves all at once.  Instead, we learn and become more aware with each life lesson we encounter, much like uncovering the layers of an onion as we peel them back. With each layer we unveil about ourselves, we awaken more and more to the very core of our being, our highest nature, our heart, our spirit.

I've been diligently working on what Regina calls "mastering a mind with a mind of its own".  Paying attention to my thoughts as I think them, and being the 'chair' of my mind committee.

As I was driving home from work, I realized just how judgmental I've been toward myself.  I'd become pro at the first option Mr. Shakur mentions in the quote above.  Over-analyzing everything.  Being very critical of everything I did, everything I said, everything I thought.  Yep, even when I thought it was me in charge of those thoughts, I realized it was really my mind.  It had simply become old, old habit to over-analyze everything.  So much so that it was "normal" to me.  Today, I came to the realization that that "normal" just didn't suit the real ME anymore.

For one thing, since becoming pregnant, I've noticed just how much more these negative habits have an adverse effect on my body.  When I'm anxious, when I allow things to stress me out, I can feel it immediately in my body.  It becomes tense, my heart beats fast, my stomach begins to hurt.  I dislike this feeling!  The only thing that makes me feel better is to take a deep, deep breath, relax my mind, and let all worries dissipate.

So, I immediately began putting into practice a new habit.  I began "leav[ing] the pieces on the floor and mov[ing] the f--k on."

Now, no more: 1) being overly critical of myself and every move I make; 2) over-analyzing every situation; 3) thinking about what could have, should have, would have been.

And . . . on to the next layer of my being!

Good day and Namaste <3

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Interested or Committed?

Are you merely interested in achieving some goal or intention you've set (or considered setting) for yourself?  Or are you truly committed to it?  What's the difference?

You may be interested in getting fit, saving money, becoming more organized, etc. But you let excuses such as "not enough time", "I'll be better able to do so when...", and so on, get in your way.  You allow those excuses and stories to keep you from what you deep down, truly want.

However, once you fully commit to a goal/intention, that's when you accept NO excuse, no lack-of-time, nothing.  You rearrange your priorities as needed in order to fit in the time to work toward your goal or intention.  You may will still come up against obstacles; however, you will find a way around or through them.  That goal is your objective and you let nothing stand in your way.

So, are you interested... or committed?

Friday, August 12, 2011

Let Your Light Shine!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. 

Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. 

~ quote by Marianne Williamson ~

PLEASE SHARE:  How do you let YOUR own unique light shine?

Thursday, August 11, 2011

A Fit Pregnancy Update Number 1

Yes, I am pregnant.  Yes, sheer exhaustion took over my body, as did bouts of nausea, as my body coped with beginning to form new life.  Yes, I've taken it easy on myself.  But, at times, perhaps TOO easy.  Or, maybe I've done just the right thing.  Who am I to judge myself so harshly these days??  I only have to look back at this blog to see how far I came prior to becoming pregnant.

That blog set out my contingent plan to NOT gain any weight during my first trimester.  Well, as much of an ideal plan as that was, it really doesn't take into account 'real life', does it?!  So far, I've gained somewhere in the region of 6-7 pounds.  As much as I wanted to commit to eating healthy, I ate what my body was capable of eating without feeling terribly sick afterward.  I ate when my body was hungry (which has been often, every 2-3 hours), because if I didn't, I felt horribly sick.  I let my body sleep when I knew exercise would be just as good for it, if not even better.  But, I craved sleep!  I muddled along as best I could.

However, now that I'm finally starting to see the end of this week-long sinus infection I came down with, and now that I'm staring the end of my first trimester in the face, I can feel my energy levels increasing.  I've also been feeling less and less nauseous (apart from when I get really, really hungry).  AND, for the past week or so, I've been genuinely missing my jogs and exercise in general.  Not to mention noticing the physical changes in my body where those 6-7 pounds have placed themselves!

So, as many times as I've said it in the past few weeks, I'm truly 100% ready to get back to exercising.  Not as intensely as pre-pregnancy, but I know how to listen to my body, pushing it but not too far.  The plan is to get back to walking/jogging, some kickboxing and to form a regular prenatal yoga routine.

As for the half marathon I'd signed up for on September 24, 2011, I've asked to be moved to the 4-mile run instead.  As much as I was looking forward to my first half marathon, this baby and our health and safety come first.  I will easily be able to handle 4 miles, but I thought 13.1 miles would be pushing it, especially since I've not been training these past few weeks.  AND, this way, I'll be running these 4 miles with my fiance THE DAY WE GET MARRIED!!!  Yes, we set our wedding date for Saturday, September 24, 2011.  We shall run together in the morning and be wed in the afternoon.  :)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

A Fit Pregnancy

This was me, one year ago, at approximately 199lbs:

This is me a little over a week ago, at 149lbs and five weeks pregnant:

Recently, I read this article, amongst others, on the subject of healthy weight gain during pregnancy.  At 149lbs, I'm still considered 'overweight' for my height, BMI, etc.  The general consensus regarding a healthy weight gain during pregnancy for one who is overweight at the beginning of pregnancy is 15-25lbs, all of which should be gained during the second and third trimesters.

With the amount of nausea I've experienced thus far (and yeah, I refuse to take any prescription drugs to alleviate the nausea -- it's natural or nothing for me) eating has been pretty hit-and-miss for me so far.  Foods either taste really great, or I find I cannot stomach them.  A food that sounded great yesterday turns my stomach today.  I can only eat a little at a time or else my tummy takes revenge.  I have to eat small and often or I suffer.  Quite the balancing act!

I weighed in at 150.6lbs at my first prenatal appointment.  A week later, I weighed 149lbs. That was with very little to no exercise, apart from some walking.  Now, before you judge, I have no intention of restricting or reducing my calorie intake while pregnant.  However, I feel I can still safely exercise within my means and energy level, eat healthily and sensibly, and still maintain and/or lose some weight during the remainder of my first trimester.

I've continued to use MyFitnessPal and I've obtained a Prenatal Yoga DVD.  OK, I admit it, I've only done the prenatal yoga DVD one time so far (and really like it!), but I've been using my lack of energy and exhaustion as an excuse to *not* exercise.  Honest, I will change this.  I intend to stay fit and stay within the recommended 15-25lb weight gain.  I cannot do this by slacking on exercise and eating too much.

So, tomorrow morning, I shall drag my exhausted preggo booty out of bed early enough to take a gentle walk/jog before work.  I will begin performing my prenatal yoga DVD with more regularity.  I'm thinking 3-4 times a week.  I will make use of my balance ball and perhaps even our exercise bike.  Because, let's face it, the healthier this mamma is, the healthier this baby shall be!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

New Life: A Letter to My Unborn Child

Dear Little One in my Womb:

You have my absolute promise that your daddy and I will do everything within our power to keep you safe, nurtured, healthy and loved, forever.  Your daddy and I have desired to meet you since we first began trying to conceive.  We are overjoyed and filled with such gratitude that you have chosen us as your parents, that you have chosen this time to come into our lives, and we look forward to learning as much from you as you will learn from us.

Your big brother, Dalton, is excited to meet you, too.  He will have much to teach you, he will be protective and loving, and I'm sure as siblings you will be both the greatest of friends and each other's biggest rivals.  It will be a beautiful thing, stemming from love and a sense of family and belonging.

How happy and content we are that we get to guide you and watch you grow.  I'm enjoying and savoring every moment of this pregnancy, all the while anticipating the day we get to meet you and hold you in our arms.  You are truly blessed and such a blessing to us and this world.

With love always,
Mommy <3